If Only… 1

If Only
 
If only I could say my goodbyes
While I was doing time sitting
Here wondering if only I could’ve
And should’ves run through my
Mind like a marathon wondering
When ‘dis shit stops I feel
Sick like I was on a merry-go-round
That just didn’t stop
 
Wonder when I was going to
Cop my next fix wondering if
Only I could stop ‘dis beast
Inside of me my mom’s crying
Wondering if only I could get
My son back off of that black
Tar heroin if only if only…
What if I did get off ‘dat shit
I would be ‘da best man God
Intended me to be Oso sweet
Helping peeps on ‘da streets
To get them on their feet.
 
~MB
 
 
If Only
 
If only live weren’t so lonely
if homies stayed homies fuck all the phonies
If only I chose a different path
Than looking behind at the path from the past
And blaming others for any faults as I laugh
Can’t life be different I think so different as it passed
But no it is late I feel like I’m in dead last.
Killed by my thoughts like I’m stuck in the past
If only if only I could go back in time
Change what I did and make my life mine.
If only if only we could rewind time.
Change what we are and have peace of mind.
 
~JT
 

One comment

  1. MB- Your poem hits home since this is an issue so many in New Mexico face. Your words help to capture the living history of the area.

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