The Reason why
I Go To School….
– to learn about who I am
– to never stop growing
– to teach my daughter
– to inspire the future
– to open my mind
– to learn what is known and what is unknown
– to look inside myself
– to better society
– to “LIVE”
I know your name was Dorothy but that everyone called you Dot.
I know you hated that diminutive though no one ever told me why.
There are many things I half know from the scraps of memory that have been tossed my way,
But there is very little I can pin down from so far away.
I know you graduated second in your high school class,
Even though you were a girl,
Even though it was the 1940’s.
I know you loved learning to the point of religion,
And there is speculation that you wanted to attend a university.
But I also know you couldn’t afford it,
And turned down the nursing scholarship that was offered to you.
You didn’t want to be a nurse.
I know that you were cheerful in the morning,
And punctual to a fault,
Because your youngest child, my father, must get that from you.
But I do not know what you listened to on the radio,
If you sang or whistled under your breath as you worked,
Or if you were satisfied with what you had.
I know you were a stubborn woman married to a stubborn man,
And I know you were both disagreeable in your own ways,
But I will never know what those ways were.
I know that you were short and curly haired
And I have been told that I resemble you,
But I can’t say because your pictures are kept hidden.
I know that the reason my father hates hospitals
Is because he watched you die in one
So many years before I was born.
I know less about you than my grandfather
Because your son never talks about you
Without a catch in his voice.
I know I shouldn’t wonder so much about
Someone I have no hope to meet,
I’ve always been chasing your ghost.
The Reason Why…
The reason why it took me so long to get my undergraduate is now clear to me. I was simply living my life for everyone else but myself. I grew up always knowing that I was going to college no matter what but what I didn’t realize is that I had to go for the right reasons.
I thought I wanted to be a doctor. I really did want to be a doctor at the time because I thought it was going to give me the life I wanted. I wanted the money, the prestige, and ultimately to make my parents happy. I knew deep down it wasn’t what I really wanted to do.
It was only until now that I realized that I need to be living for myself. I need to be selfish. I need to do what I want and create the life I have always wanted doing the things that I am passionate about. Today is my last day of my undergraduate career at UNM and I am going on to get a second degree in automotive restoration. My second degree is going to be the degree I get for myself and nobody else.
I have finally taken the first step in living my life for myself…
The reason y there is consternation in this world, isn’t due to our cultures hold, but rather instincts scorn towards reasons unknown.
The reason y we care for others is true in its reliance. The belief to receive deeds from awkward passer by’ers .
The reason y civilization has flourished in the past century, or even hundred years is due to our American strife and lost lives. We boom in generations, and repeat our integration. Open borders for the world too introduce more brethren. American spirit unmentioned, just self-patriotism for those who choose to believe realism. Make a path of chaos or concord, any direction to go, in our pursuit of happiness and living dead horror.
The reason why I decided to change my major at the last minute was because I am afraid to graduate and not get a job. I am worrying about it. Hopefully I do find a job that I will be happy with. My first double major is Sociology and Spanish but now it is Criminology and Spanish. I think changing it will help me get a good job and that I will be interested. Also it will help me out to get the job I really want. I want to become an immigration judge.
I often wonder why the world is falling off
Corporate greed like pigs at a trough
Maybe it’s something we fail to seek
Like life after death or a life that’s complete
From my point of view it’s not too complex
We don’t invest in our youth and we leave them a mess
It seems like they have three strikes from the get
Daddy in jail and mom smoking meth
What kind of life do we expect them to lead?
We glamorize gangsters and promote smoking weed
In the Bible it states “the meek shall inherit the earth”
Without a fair chance then what’s it all worth?
The media will say anything to fatten its wallets
Obama can’t change it and no human can stop it
While our morals and values are on the decline
It’s our children and elders that get left behind
I contemplate ways I could turn it around
We can spark a revolution and just hold it down!
That’s when it hits me it’s out of my hands
Our problems go deep and I do all I can
Our focus should be to take care of our kids
To love and to guide them from beginning to end
Some say it might just be the end of our times
Revelations are upon us, and maybe that why.
What reasons do I have to love you?
What reasons do I have to love you
You cruel and bitter man?
You have extinguished my fire
Tarnished my gleam
Shattered my hope
Abused me at all costs
Robbing me of light
How could you do this?
How can you hurt the one you are supposed to cherish
The one you are supposed to love more than anything
The one you are supposed to stand by
The one that can never be replaced
I put my trust in your hands
And you lost it
You betrayed me
Forsaken me in your hate
Broke my heart
Lead me to disappointment
You deceive me and yet I am supposed to be faithful?
How can I be
I despise you
I can’t stand the sight of your disguise
I can no longer stand your petty superficial remarks
Your controlling demeanor
Thinking that the world revolves around you
How can I love someone I hate
I am different
I am better than to succumb to your treachery
To be molded into your image
I don’t need you in my life
I never have
And I never will
I am just a job you were forced to take kicking and screaming
You never wanted me
I am not your slave to follow at your command
I am not here to be your lap dog
Nor am I here to be talked down to
To feel lower than dirt
You will never understand
You never cared for what I feel
What I want
What I dream
Why should I believe you now?
Is your sudden interest to mock me?
To show me my missed opportunity?
If I told you this would you believe me?
Would it penetrate through your thick skull?
Would you change?
Become a better man?
Honestly I could care less
I no longer crave your love
Life isn’t a fairy tale
The Reason Why
The Reason why I love you
Is because your love is true
It is something untainted
It’s just striate up lifted
You’re so smart
My little sweet tart
The reason why god put us together
Because we deserve each other forever
I always wanted a daughter like you
And you deserve a good mother too
I try to be the best
But I admit it is a difficult test
To accomplish success
And still be the best mom yet
But between work and school
It’s so uncool
Because accomplishing success is cruel
How time flies by
And I can’t lie
I wish I had more time
Because it feels like a crime
To be away
But may I say
You’re always on my mind
Especially when I’m on my grind
To get you anything your hear desires
Because you’re my fire
With your big hazel eyes
Has me hypnotized
In your hugs
You make me complete
Because you’re so sweet
You’re my little strawberry treat
Your my mini me
Myself in you
It’s so true
This is the reason I love you
To this day, I still don’t understand
How anyone could do something to cause such
Excruciating pain and suffering to thousands of people. The
Reality must be a combination of hatred, evil and sickness.
Everyone in this nation will always remember the sight of
Ash and debris falling, and people jumping, the horrible image of that
September morning will forever be seared into our collective conscious.
Offenses such as this rarely abide by any rhyme or reason,
Never giving grieving victims any kind of relief or closure.
What happens next and where we go from here will decided
How history will remember us. We must overcome the tragedies of
Yesterday and push on, acknowledging that we may never know the reason why.